I remember the first day I read lesson 200 out of A Course in Miracles.....it changed my life. I was sitting in a hotel perplexed and angry about my present circumstances. My family and I had sold our house in hopes of moving to a new city. We were so excited......new always seem to be exciting, especially when you have lost your contentment for the old. Well, needless to say, circumstances did not play out in my favor, at least I felt that way.
I was in such agony because I thought, "if only I could move to this new town...." I just knew moving would provide me the PEACE I was searching for. To be denied even the hope of it was a tragedy. I was so sick of being disappointed. Why couldn't I just have what I wanted for a change? I was miserable in all areas of my life.....marriage, being a mother, etc. Nothing was flourishing. No PEACE no where!
Sitting in my hotel room, I opened ACIM to lesson 200 and was blessed beyond measure. THERE IS NO PEACE EXCEPT THE PEACE OF GOD. SEEK YOU NO FURTHER. YOU WILL NOT FIND PEACE EXCEPT THE PEACE OF GOD. ACCEPT THIS FACT AND SAVE YOURSELF THE AGONY OF YET MORE BITTER DISAPPOINTMENTS, BLEAK DESPAIR, AND SENSE OF ICY HOPELESSNESS AND DOUBT.~ ACIM lesson 200: 1-3
Look no further some future event as I did to SAVE you from the depth of pain you PERCEIVE you are experiencing. Face whatever you fear until you realize it has no POWER.
I started this blog to share with others the pain and joy of this wonderful journey of finding true peace. Daily I will post my thoughts, experiences, and revelations about my journey and the journey of others. I will write as if there is no audiance, as if I am free to be me, with no one judging or criticizing my words or actions. This will be a real and raw view of what it is like to have experienced abandonment and rejection in the worst ways, and to now experience the journey of HEALING and FINDING TRUE PEACE. I believe in shedding the outer exterior that WE ALL use to protect ourselves, to bear my soul for the healing of others. FIND TRUE PEACE, embrace it and accept it, no matter the cost. I pray that the unfolding of my truth in some way helps you to HEAL and unfold yours. We are all WHOLE, BEAUTIFUL, and FULL OF GRACE. May the God of peace continue to bring the fullness of JOY into your life.