WELCOME

I started this blog to share with others the pain and joy of this wonderful journey of finding true peace. Daily I will post my thoughts, experiences, and revelations about my journey and the journey of others. I will write as if there is no audiance, as if I am free to be me, with no one judging or criticizing my words or actions. This will be a real and raw view of what it is like to have experienced abandonment and rejection in the worst ways, and to now experience the journey of HEALING and FINDING TRUE PEACE. I believe in shedding the outer exterior that WE ALL use to protect ourselves, to bear my soul for the healing of others. FIND TRUE PEACE, embrace it and accept it, no matter the cost. I pray that the unfolding of my truth in some way helps you to HEAL and unfold yours. We are all WHOLE, BEAUTIFUL, and FULL OF GRACE. May the God of peace continue to bring the fullness of JOY into your life.

TGM



Tuesday, December 14, 2010

TRUST THE PROCESS

There seems to always be two plans at work, sometimes three: God's, yours, and some alternative plan of destruction. This journey is like a maze sometimes. To be honest when I encounter that spot where I feel totally lost, I want to quit, throw in the towel, just be done with it all. "I don't want to be a participant in this thing call life, it is too difficult, it requires too much," I say to myself and anyone who dares to listen to me. My frustration with it all is a result of road blocks on my journey.....I hate road blocks. Why can't things just go as I PLANNED!

TRUST THE PROCESS! No matter how many times I submit to God's plan of action and trust His Spirit to guide me into perfect peace, I somehow interject with my own plans. This interjection takes place when I don't seem to understand WHY difficulties are arising. Why so much friction, dysfunction, road blocks, you name it? I want to figure it out, smooth out the bumpy road, or at least take another route. I have a hard time just BEING PRESENT in the midst of whatever is taking place.

My only way to FINDING TRUE PEACE during my challenging times is to TRUST THE PROCESS. What does that really mean? We are all in the process of metamorphosing, changing, transforming, birthing into TRUTH. Trust God as He sheds off the outer garment of past experiences and the beliefs they have developed. What we normally experience is not who we TRULY are.......the process reveals God and God within us.......now that's who we truly are. In order to experience our nature on its purest level, we have to let go of our own knowledge of God, ourselves, and the world around us. Allow God to reveal on a deeper level His nature, His will, and His divine purpose for you. Take quiet moments to commune and listen as the process is taking place, submit to it, abide in it, be present in it.

The TRUTH we will be revealed as we just TRUST THE PROCESS. The process is what allow us to take root in God's Truth. Ask and the truth shall be revealed. DO YOU BELIEVE GOD.........TRUST THE PROCESS.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

What We Do Comes From What We Think

For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he (Prov. 23:7a).  The thoughts we think are so powerful. They are able to both create and destroy. What if we really took the scripture to be TRUTH.....as I think, so am I. Would we think thoughts that created joy and peace for our self  and others? I truly believe we have creative power we have not tapped into. Are we afraid, slothful, or just uninspired to utilize it.

What if instead of sitting around all day pondering the mystery of what went wrong with this or that, or thinking about what someone said that offended us and how we should have told them off,  we should try using our thoughts to experience our greatest truth, our highest purpose. Only the Spirit knows what that is for you, and only you can tap into your creative power. Right now my greatest truth and highest purpose is to know that I am healed and to heal. I am challenged everyday in my thoughts. I am so used to playing the victim, so knowing that I am heal, whole, and loved has been, and still is a process, but one I am enjoying.

So, attempting a behavioral change is fruitless if you have not changed your thinking. What are you meditating on ALL DAY?.......is it God's unmeasurable love, or is it your inconsistency or your so call perfection that leaves everyone in awe of your existence.....what is it, because those are the types of behaviors you will emit. And sadly, these behaviors are designed to illicit attention, acceptance and approval from others.

Thoughts that are inspired and developed by meditating on God's Truth ignites you with a creative force to produce love, healing, joy, and peace.

Blessings,
TGM

Monday, December 6, 2010

The Absence of Struggle

After encountering several days of inner chaos, I have entered a sanctuary of peace. I sat at my dining table this morning and for a moment I noticed the absence of struggle. What do I mean? Everyday, as far as I can remember, I would have intense internal struggles. These struggles would be about anything and nothing. Why did this happen to me....Why don't my kids listen to me.....Why don't I ever get the lesson God is trying to teach me....Why? Why? Why? Now some internal struggles are necessary to bring you to a place of true healing, but everything with me is taken to the extreme. I just can't have a small internal struggle, face it, and move on.....NO, I have to pine and pine over it, until I create an enormous mountain out of a tiny insignificant pebble.

Today, for the first time in a long time, I recognized the silence inside, the absence of struggle. I was breathing again......my mind was not taking me through the endless circles of trying to figure out how to survive the day, or even the year. I take so much comfort in the Love of God right now. I feel it, embrace it, and own it for this sacred moment. I am yet learning how to abide in this place....my sanctuary of peace.

I had a long fulfilling conversation with a friend last night. At the end of the conversation we both asked, "What do you really want?" After all the many places we have searched, and the many things we have searched for, what was it that we really wanted. We both, in our frantic and determined voices, spoke our truth as we knew it. I wanted to be FULL, and she wanted to be FREE. What is so ironic about our desires to be FREE and FULL is that we're already everything we want to be. Take courage my friends, truly we are perfect and wholly made, full of God's Grace.......our only need is to recognize it.


Blessings,
TGM

Sunday, December 5, 2010

There is no PEACE except the PEACE of God

I remember the first day I read lesson 200 out of A Course in Miracles.....it changed my life. I was sitting in a hotel perplexed and angry about my present circumstances. My family and I had sold our house in hopes of moving to a new city. We were so excited......new always seem to be exciting, especially when you have lost your contentment for the old. Well, needless to say, circumstances did not play out in my favor, at least I felt that way.

I was in such agony because I thought, "if only I could move to this new town...." I just knew moving would provide me the PEACE I was searching for. To be denied even the hope of it was a tragedy. I was so sick of being disappointed. Why couldn't I just have what I wanted for a change? I was miserable in all areas of my life.....marriage, being a mother, etc. Nothing was flourishing. No PEACE no where!

Sitting in my hotel room, I opened ACIM to lesson 200 and was blessed beyond measure. THERE IS NO PEACE EXCEPT THE PEACE OF GOD. SEEK YOU NO FURTHER. YOU WILL NOT FIND PEACE EXCEPT THE PEACE OF GOD. ACCEPT THIS FACT AND SAVE YOURSELF THE AGONY OF YET MORE BITTER DISAPPOINTMENTS, BLEAK DESPAIR, AND SENSE OF ICY HOPELESSNESS AND DOUBT.~ ACIM lesson 200: 1-3

Look no further some future event as I did to SAVE you from the depth of pain you PERCEIVE you are experiencing. Face whatever you fear until you realize it has no POWER.


~Blessings,
TGM